Tuesday, June 06, 2006

the good fork

Decisions are so hard. At least, they are when you're faced with several very good options. I'm in the process of making some big decisions and making some plans that will have a huge impact on my life, and let me just say-- this is hard stuff! I am so grateful, however, that I am facing options that I know are of God and that suit who I am and who I am trying to become. There was a time in my life not very long ago that I was making big decisions and plans, but something deep in my heart knew I was not staying true to the person God has created me to be... now THAT is risky business. Those decisions were hard, but for a whole different reason.

In a class discussion at ORU, I remember saying once that "God's will" was not necessarily a specific path we are to follow, but that it seems to be tied more to our relationship to Him. I have learned a lot about the grace of God during the last year, and I feel like I've spent too much of my life trying to "perfect" my walk with God, to do "His will," when all he really wants is for me to be close to him, to feel when he nudges me. It sounds so simple when I write it here.

The closer I am to God, the easier it is to see what things (or situations, or people) in my life are keeping me from the purpose God has for me... simple enough. So, now that I have spent many months getting rid of those things (and will most likely continue this process throughout my life, as most of us will), I am still left at a fork in the road, with multiple excellent pathways to choose from.

At least it's not the "bad fork" in the road that I was agonizing over a year ago... But, as exciting as they are, good forks can be hard too.

1 comment:

The big J said...

I love how you put things. You certainly keep me on my toes. I love to hear you talk about where you've come from, but I love to hear about where you are going even more. Remember your heart. Remember His.

It's in you. I hope you know how proud of you I am.